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~*~ walking thru the looking glass ~*~
Monday, December 05, 2005
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Something EviL This Way Comes::
Talked to my buddy colleague. Macam2 member tu kena pat tpt keje. Kesian seh dia. Wats happening?! Ada yg tak bertegur sapa. Ada yg kena kutuk pat belakang. Ada yg kena kutuk terang2. Macam2 la. As for me actually I ever felt what she felt before. Aku lagi kena berenang sendiri dengan Jerung & Pirana without any support. Stress seh. Bingit pun ada. How would u feel if u haf to do something but no1 wants to do it but die2 u must do it coz ur superior wants u 2 do it. Then ur fren later took over everything coz she thinks she's more competent than u. Yap... no doubt she doesnt say it but u feel it. Helping is one thing but taking over is another. She always think she's rite & ur wrong or half rite.
I know I am not around due to my condition but going to werk sux! Its totally unlike last yr coz I lurve my werk. I haf support...after sch we stayed back to do werk or had a meal together. We discussed about werk & stuff...gif ideas how to teach better. Last yr I can teach creatively... this yr my creativity just die. Not only that I became depress. It doesnt only affect my werk.. my personal life is affected too. I had mood swing & tears just became a close friend. It so hard to werk wif pple who just think they are morally correct & politically upright. Basket! If she wants everything... by all means u can haf it. I m not power hungry or out to prove Im da best. I just do whats gd for my students, help out my colleague or prove to myself that I m capable. Hey.. my biggest foe is myself not others. I loves challenges but I dont want to step on others nor stab them.
Selain tu, apa nak buat if some1 tell u bad stuff abt ur colleague? Then I become a hypocrite. Haf to hide my true feelings because u dont want others to get hurt. But wat if ur da one who gets hurt? Then where's da justice? Nak jaga hati & perasaan org tapi org sakitkan hati kita. Mcm s'ak! Btw, Azna my dear friend, if u need some1 to talk or complain to, feel free to contact me ok. Susah eh kalau org dah ada idea yg kita ni tak tau buat keje / tak buat keje... biarlah. We know ourselves better. I saw how bz u were wif other responsibilities given by Sethu.
LadyHawke left a kiss...2:19 AM
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