~*~ walking thru the looking glass ~*~
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
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Odd GirL OuT::
Just now I watched a movie on one of the SCV movie channel titled "Odd Girl Out". Before you start groaning...not another teenager story..well, it's not about romance. It's more on friendship and peer pressure among teenagers. Since my life ... oo wait.. my professional life (thats better) evolves around kids, that movie has its effect on me..ok..ok..i can't help being sentimental all the time. *sticks out tongue*.
Summary:
It's about Vanessa who was very smart, quite pretty and very naive was backstabbed by her friends. She hangs out with the 'popular' girls and her best friend, Stacie, is sort of the leader of the pack. Stacie & the rest of the pack starts picking on Vanessa. Soon the verbal abuse made more kids joined in the pack for the cheap thrills..hey they even taped her when she was being rushed to the hospital due to an overdose just for laughs. Getting very stressed out, she did something to her hair, even played truant (due to the hair) and finally had an overdose of sleeping pills. From that incident she became closer to a new girl in her class, Emily. The story had a happy ending with Vanessa found her strength to 'dump' Stacie.
My Favourite Part:-
Vanessa confronting Stacie for revealing what they talked to the rest of the pack..(rough quotation of the dialogue.. hey i can't 100% recall it).
Stacie: I'm da best thing that happen to you.
Vanessa: Yeah rite, like a flesh eating virus.
Stacie: (whispers) Come on we don't have to do this.
Vanessa: No, you can't just walk away from this.
Stacie: Ok..ok.. I'm sorry for all the things that I've done to you. We're still friends rite?
Vanessa: No, you have nothing that I want.
Peer pressure.. a very IMPORTANT thing in our life especially during our teenage life. There's sooo many things teenagers can be pressurized on:-
1) BGR (everyone has BF except me)
2) Looks (I'm fat & unpopular)
3) Studies (I'm so stupid)
4) Trying drugs & smoking (I'm not a chicken & I wanna be cool)
5) Sex (he will leave me if we don't do it and besides everyone doing it)
Sometimes all these pressure from peers depends on the friends we mix with like the saying, 'birds of a feather flock together'. But no matter what, ultimately it's your choice. You can't follow people or trend blindly. Open up those eyes and don't be like 'lembu dicucuk hidung' which means a person who follow others blindly. We can either choose to be safe but getting dumped or pregnant & still getting dumped later. Hahaha. Life is a matter of choices so choose wisely. Even though school requires you to be kinda of uniformed, you are still an invidual with a mind of your own. You don't have to listen to what others say...hmm except your teachers of coz.. hey we don't belong to the same age group so we can't peers. Understnd?
In short...Firstly it's about the friends we mix. Secondly, the choices we make & finally it's our own believe & values. Not all people who mix with bad company turned out bad. One of my ex was an addict & I don't even smoke. It's a short relationship coz we have clash of personality & values. If you have SCV, go & catch it.. but I can't recall which channel... hahaha.
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
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I'm FloaTinG::
Yeah.. next yr Im floating! At least now I can send & fetch my son frm childcare ctr.. Very gd. Im so happy. Not only that, Kak Nita says I'll be teaching P1, 2 & 5. It has been quite sometimes I taught P1.. just uncertain how to teach them since last yr P1 has started on SEED. SEED can be fun but the only problem in we are lacking resources. It's so hard to prepare all these resouces ourselves as they can be quite costly and time consuming. Sigh.. itu pun ada bdk2 yg tak appreciate our hard work. All these materials are the fruit of our labour. I really envy other subjects like Eng, Maths & Science coz they have lots of resources and materials in the market. Maybe some teachers with $ should start a company that provides all these materials based on MOE. And pleeeaaassseeee don't make them SUPER EXPENSIVE.
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Saturday, December 10, 2005
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Pay Day - Bonu$::
I have so many stuffs that I want to buy. I cant wait for my pay especially since the last few mths my pay wz cut coz I have over used my medical claims. Lega sikit kalau dah dapat gaji ni. Ya...$ makes da world go round. I dont care what other says abt $ not being important. Abih nak bayar barang gunakan apa? Daun? Maybe money plant..hahaha.
I haf a relative who's having financial prob. Mana nak kena bayar $ rumah, $ Courts & yuran sekolah anak2... so who says $ not important...then if urs not important, gif them to me. Heheh. Tapi tak lah sampai jadi hamba $ kan... standard of living in Spore is high...smua nak kena pakai $. 
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Monday, December 05, 2005
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Something EviL This Way Comes::
Talked to my buddy colleague. Macam2 member tu kena pat tpt keje. Kesian seh dia. Wats happening?! Ada yg tak bertegur sapa. Ada yg kena kutuk pat belakang. Ada yg kena kutuk terang2. Macam2 la. As for me actually I ever felt what she felt before. Aku lagi kena berenang sendiri dengan Jerung & Pirana without any support. Stress seh. Bingit pun ada. How would u feel if u haf to do something but no1 wants to do it but die2 u must do it coz ur superior wants u 2 do it. Then ur fren later took over everything coz she thinks she's more competent than u. Yap... no doubt she doesnt say it but u feel it. Helping is one thing but taking over is another. She always think she's rite & ur wrong or half rite.
I know I am not around due to my condition but going to werk sux! Its totally unlike last yr coz I lurve my werk. I haf support...after sch we stayed back to do werk or had a meal together. We discussed about werk & stuff...gif ideas how to teach better. Last yr I can teach creatively... this yr my creativity just die. Not only that I became depress. It doesnt only affect my werk.. my personal life is affected too. I had mood swing & tears just became a close friend. It so hard to werk wif pple who just think they are morally correct & politically upright. Basket! If she wants everything... by all means u can haf it. I m not power hungry or out to prove Im da best. I just do whats gd for my students, help out my colleague or prove to myself that I m capable. Hey.. my biggest foe is myself not others. I loves challenges but I dont want to step on others nor stab them.
Selain tu, apa nak buat if some1 tell u bad stuff abt ur colleague? Then I become a hypocrite. Haf to hide my true feelings because u dont want others to get hurt. But wat if ur da one who gets hurt? Then where's da justice? Nak jaga hati & perasaan org tapi org sakitkan hati kita. Mcm s'ak! Btw, Azna my dear friend, if u need some1 to talk or complain to, feel free to contact me ok. Susah eh kalau org dah ada idea yg kita ni tak tau buat keje / tak buat keje... biarlah. We know ourselves better. I saw how bz u were wif other responsibilities given by Sethu.
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Sunday, December 04, 2005
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My DeaR CoLLeaGue::
My colleague has left me a testimonial at my frenster. Awww...she miss me. LOL. But it has a disturbing msg to it too. According to her, some tension is brewing at werk...ni yg buat risau. Then read her blog...someting abt backstabbing. I'm da 1 wif da D so y is she feeling da backstabbing. Kesian dier. I guess no1 wants to backstab me since Im a sinking ship. I do feel a bit guilty abt leaving some werk undone like updating attendance in da cockpit. Sorry gal. One thing I really appreciate abt is that she is ever ready to help. Dia dah byk tolong. One thing abt us is we helped each other out of shit. (We lost each other stuff. We called each other names. We cracked each other up wif crap.)
Wat's happening there? Will our workplace be the happy place that it used to be? Or maybe it never was since everyone just playing pretend. And its happiness was just a mirage. Or just maybe she & I are just too bonkers to notice it and we b'came worse. Dah la...all this makes me sad. I'm already sad enuff wif my D even when I manage to do some miracle with my P6. What da heck...who care Alisa! It's politic at werk...u snooze u looze. Suddenly I have a feeling that I want to quit in a few yrs time. Hate the ridiculous demand of some pple, da sarcasm on my messiness & da selfishness of some pple. My cuzzin has ard da same pay as me but she doesn't have to bring home werk! And I have to werk almost 24/7 and to make matter worse, be at da mercy of others. Crap la...ni smua too depressing...padanla byk yg masuk IMH or need a shrink.
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